Thursday, 30 May 2013

Finaly i think to move up ...

one day i woke up and i think ... maybe it's not our destiny. so with a hard feeling i DECIDE to move from our friendship and stay alone by myself. maybe somebody will ask why? then i will said. Nothing.. =) maybe i'm not Good for them.

Best friend will always be with u whatever happen and comes to you. when u sad she comfort you. when u fail she believe on u and when u angry she chill u.then i know, i'm not good enough to be your 'bestfriend'. it's was so  hard! really hard for me because i already tough u will be my bestiest but i'm wrong.  u just be with me because i'm somebody. when i'm anybody u move from me. it's not a true friend.

i get a millions friends but i always comfort with 'somefriends' because i think they understand me. but i'm wrong. they just be with u when u have a power and facilities, if not? she will leave u! if u dont believe me then its day u will felt the same way with me.

I know sometimes i'm selfish but i never let other hurting my Friend including me!! but them, they just see it and ignore it when has something not comfort me. it's hurting me inside my dear! it's really hurting me.

After a long time i think.. finaly i made my decision. i really need to move up from u. but my dearly friend, always remembers one thing.. i always believe with u and my love with always with u. my prayers too. Thank you for everything my dear although its hurting me inside but it's ok. i really appreciate u comes into my life. Tq....

Baby.. tolong bertahan untuk ibu.

everybody can said "strong dear' but just i'm the only one know what meaning of strong in this condition! Ramai yang menegur aku memang emo, xmesra, dan lain2 sejak2 pregnant ni tapi kalaulah mereka tahu apa yang aku alami then they will said "patutlah dia mcm tu" although i don't hope anybody understand me.

Beratnya menanggung 'keperitan'. Menjadi ibu adalah idaman semua wanita, perempuan diatas dunia. tapi tiada ibu yang mahu kehilangan anaknya sedangkan mereka tahu anak mereka sedang membesar dalam rahim mereka. untill now, i still cannot crying. i'm not strong!! YaAllah besarnya dugaanmu.

anak ibu,
Tolong jangan tinggalkan ibu lagi sekarang?
tolong bertahan untuk ibu dan abah!
Dah 4 bulan syg dgn ibu.. tolong jangan tinggalkan ibu sekarang.

anak ibu,
Allah sahaja yang tahu apa perasaan ibu dan abah bila kami tahu awak membesar dalam perut ibu..
Allah sahaja tahu terharunya ibu bila tengok degupan jantung awak waktu pergi check up..
allah juga yang tahu betapa banyaknya perancangan ibu & abah untuk awak..